One of the things I struggle with in my personal psychology is being comfortable with having people be attracted to me.
It’s okay once I trust them and I know for sure that they are legit, but when someone expresses an attraction initially, my immediate reaction is always to suspect that they are joking or lying for some reason.
Whether it’s a random dude on the street or someone I am actually having a real conversation with, if they compliment anything about me or say they are attracted to me or anything of that nature, I immediately start trying to mentally calculate what their angle is, and why they would say something like that. I seem unable to accept the idea that they could actually be speaking from a place of honesty.
Growing up an “ugly duckling” can really fuck with your head!