Uhhh. I’m not going to tell you to change how you feel, but Ellie is an extraordinarily kind person and she’s given lots of sound advice in the past. I’m sorry that one piece of her advice didn’t work out for you.
I don’t actually remember how we met, but we’ve known each other for years. She came to one of my shows in 2008 and wrote a really lovely review of it on her blog. She’s sent me books she thought I would like, and an amazing piece of artwork she made for me that’s still up in my room to this day. And she gave me a lot of immensely helpful advice and support when I was going through a tough emotional time a couple years back.